As graduation quickly approaches I find myself very excited. Not a bit nervous or worried. Partly because I have step by step plan for approximately the next 2-3 years. Obviously, nothing is to say those are set in stone because life happens and it isn’t always the nicest.
However, with that being said I find peace in it still. Even on the chance that my plans and dreams won’t happen or won’t happen like I want. I feel totally comfortable. Why you ask. The answer is simple. My faith.
My plan is to finish my 13th-year program through Delta College and my high school to graduate with my MEMCA certificate and 14 credits short of an associates degree. Then I will transfer to LSSU to get my bachelors degree in Wildlife and Fisheries Biology. With that, I hope to work through the DNR. Once I move back after college and we both get settled into a career my current boyfriend plan to get married and start our family.
Like I said, I have a plan and if all goes my way I’m gonna have my dream life. When it comes down to it all this may not go my way. I might not get accepted to LSSU or might have to really search for a job. My boyfriend and I may break up. But through any of these instances I know I’d be ok eventually.
I was telling my aunt that I feel horrible about being comfortable with either possibility of my boyfriend and me. I’ve thought about it a lot. I’ve decided that if he isn’t the one God will take him away and then take care of me. I love him with everything I am and I truly hope that doesn’t happen.
It’s not even that I think it will because it’s the farthest worry from my mind, I just look at it like this, if God can take my dad away he can take anyone away and I survived through my dad. It means I can take on anything if I stay strong in my faith. I hope my plans all layout nicely and I’ll do everything in my power to see that happen.
I also know that life happens too. I mean I also planned on graduating, getting married, and starting a family while my dad was here. I planned on shooting my first deer with him right by my side to celebrate with me. I planned on him being the one to walk me down the aisle and give me away. God, however, had other plans.
After experiencing my dad’s unexpected death I realize God’s plans and my plans don’t always line up and more times than not his are always better anyway.
I am a list, calendar, pre-planning type of person and many times it comes in handy. Others times it doesn’t. For instance when something messes up my planning. It is really frustrating but if something didn’t work out I know it’s cause it wasn’t part of the big picture.
We aren’t able to see the big picture, therefore, our plans pretty much mean nothing. It’s a good guide to have and it’s good to have a general idea, but it’s not going to be up to you. Once that is realized life goes so much better. There are no worries or fears or what ifs. You know that you’ll be taken care of no matter what. You’ll survive in one piece no matter what life brings you.
If you’re struggling with something give it to God and he will handle it. I gave my life to God and now I look at my future with ideas in mind, but ready for a spin. I’ve faced the hardest thing in my life up to this point and the strength that grew in me from that makes me feel invincible with God of course.
From one of my favorite TV shows
“Expect the Unexpected”- Big Brother
And be confident that you’ll be ok no matter what level of unepected comes.